I do realize that I wrote two conflicting posts one right after the other (not counting this one).
I am truly devastated by Greg Giraldo's death.
I am also happy for Zachary Levi's birthday.
I feel conflicted at the moment.
But I more upset about Greg's death than excited for Zac's birthday (no offense Zac).
Anyways, just thought I'd clear that up. I felt weird writing both posts right after each other.
Today, I got a package from Zachary Levi! :) In case you don't know why this is so exciting to me, read one of my more recent entries to my blog here. I wrote Zac an encouragement letter about a month ago and sent it to an address I found for him online. I never knew if he got the letter. And, since I didn't request anything in return, I figured I would have to just pray that he received it.
But today I got a "package" from him! He sent me a personalized, signed picture. Now, I know what you're thinking... "Everyone gets the same thing and he only signs it because he has to." I'd like to think that it's really special though.
And let me tell you why. I've seen pictures he has sent to other people and none of them are signed the way he signed mine (at least from the ones I have seen). I joined Twitter a little while ago and I "tweeted" Zachary Levi a message saying, "Your faith has been an encouragement to me. Please never lose that; you inspire people you don't even know. :) Love and Blessings."
He signed the picture he sent me "Anne, Love and Blessings". Ironic? Maybe. But I'd like to think that he actually read my note and sent it to me because I wrote that to him. (That might be a bit far-fetched, but it makes me feel wonderful!)
Getting that huge envelope in the mail today made my week! Or month. :) SO SO SO excited! And, CHUCK Season 4 starts on September 20th! Woo Hoo!
This morning I woke up with this intense feeling of uneasiness. Lately, I have been on, what I would call, the "right track". I have been spending quality time with the Lord each day, eating healthier, brushing and flossing (which makes me feel great too), and haven't felt overwhelmed by anything really. It's been wonderful!
But this morning, I woke up with butterflies in my stomach and feeling like something is missing...I hate this feeling...
Last night I had a vivid dream about the show Chuck, which I love. The lead actor, Zachary Levi, is a born-again Christian and someone that I admire a lot for his boldness about sharing his faith with others. He is a great role model and I respect him a lot as an actor. Due to the aforementioned qualities, I actually have feelings for him...ugh...that sounds SO lame when I write it out. I've never met him, and I probably never will, but I think he is wonderful and therefore would be completely excited if I ever had the opportunity to talk with him and meet him in person. So, my almost-24-year-old self feels like an elementary school kid again with a stupid crush on someone I don't even know.
After my dream last night, which involved me really getting to know Zac and sharing with him how much I respect him, I woke up feeling anxious. As if, in some weird way, I had hoped that my dream was real life and that Zac and I would end up together. Again, super lame.
I have struggled with similar feelings as I have watched Chuck and gotten to "know" who Zac is in real life. And I have prayed that God would protect my heart, even from a man I've never met. But every so often Zac comes into my mind and I can't seem to shake him. So, I am continuing to pray and am waiting on God's timing for the man that I am actually supposed to be with, if anyone, down the road.
It's just a sucky feeling waking up and feeling anxious about this situation.
My professor from my Death and Dying class today said something that I took as somewhat profound. Describing grief and love, he said, "The tax on love is grief. The depth to which we love is often reflected in the depth to which we grieve."
Maybe that's nothing novel or interesting to you, but I took that as being somewhat profound, so I thought I'd share it with you.
Sweet dreams, I'm off to bed after my long day of classes.
Today is my last first day of school...ever!
Well, unless I am blessed with children and take them to their first days.
Or if I become a professor and have a first day of school-teaching.
But, I am still very excited about the prospect of graduating and starting my life as a social worker! All the hard work, time reading, working on papers, interning at various social service agencies, and time stressing out will pay off in December when I will get my Master's Degree.
To start off my last-first-day-of-school morning, I made myself an egg-white omelet with ham, one piece of bacon, a small amount of cheddar cheese, mushrooms, and tomatoes. I also ate a banana and had a small glass of apple-cranberry juice.
This morning meal was created with the help of Bethenny Frankel's book "Naturally Thin". This recipe idea wasn't in the book exactly, but Bethenny does talk about your "diet bank account". This bank account, much like one you have to manage your finances, also manages what you eat each day. So, if I eat a healthy breakfast and a small lunch, I can have a larger dinner and more sweets later. It's all about checks and balances. I like this concept a lot. So, in an effort to live out a "Naturally Thin Lifestyle", I attempted to eat a (mostly) healthy breakfast and have nutritious snacks throughout the day so I don't feel guilty when I eat a piece of cake later. :) I'll keep you posted on my journey through Bethenny's book-afterall, this is the first day I'm trying out this "diet bank account" concept.
Now, I'm off to make my healthy lunch/snack pack for the rest of the day. I have class from noon until 8pm (plus driving home), so I have a long day ahead of me. I hope your day is absolutely fantastic!
It feels so good to have all my credit card debt paid off!
I'm not someone with a million credit cards, but it still feels great when their balance(s) are $0.
If I have debt in my life, it prevents me from being able to give as much as I could to the Lord or other people in need.
When I remove the debt, I am better able to serve financially when I feel called to give.
I recently told my younger brother something along the lines of, "What is the point to having money if I won't share it with others and give to those in need? Yes, it helps me pay bills and sometimes I splurge on this-or-that, but it doesn't bring true joy. If I can help someone else out, then I will always choose to give my money away. Being able to help someone else out and give of my resources brings me joy. It's not like I can take the money with me to Heaven." And I meant it.
Now, I'm not saying this to make myself out to be some overly-gracious, always giving person; I'm not. But this is my philosophy about money and other material things...whether I truly live it out every day or not, I do believe that we as people are blessed so we can bless others.
So, as I go on from today and start my part-time job again at TMOC, my goal is to continue to give of myself, my time, my resources, and my finances as much as possible-so I can give the glory to God and help to bless others around me through God's graciousness. And if someday I am the one in need, I believe that God will provide in those circumstances as well.
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